Friday, December 25, 2009
I would like to think that I am a tolerant and kind person, however this morning has tested my patience. Several nurses have called and said they were stuck in ditches on their way and I feel bad for them - they attempted to come to work. They got up early to get out of their driveways and come to work. Then there are the people who called at 6:15-6:20am to say they were stuck in their driveways. What I want to know is why they are just now getting out of their houses and into their driveways. We had a blizzard advisory before people went to bed last night, so why didn't people get up early to check conditions, get themselves out of their driveways, and get their butts to work. I am trying to be kind and understanding, but really i'm just annoyed that I have to be here until others get here. I want to go home and go to bed. I don't want to get stuck in the snow on the way home. I want to get paid my time and a half for work last night, but since I'm on orientation, I don't get the holiday pay. Sometimes life doesn't work the way you want.
Monday, December 14, 2009
For example, getting a new toy/movie/gadget is always a cause for celebration in my house. We get the "new stuff" and play with it right away - maybe all day. When I first got my iPhone I spent lots of time on it fooling around. We usually get a new movie home and open it up right away and watch it. If it's something I have really been waiting for, like the new Star Trek, I will watch the movie, then all the special features, then maybe the movie with commentary. However, after a while new things get less exciting. My iPhone is still way cool but it has lost some of it's inital excitement (however, new apps always make me happy).
A new job is like that in lots of ways. I was soooo excited when I was offered the new job. Boy was I excited. It was the job I wanted and I was so glad that they wanted me too. Then it took two whole weeks to start orientation so I was anxious to start. Once I got to the orientation, I was super excited again because I got my badge that says Emily, RN (Woot) and I could use it to clock in, etc. I even used payroll deduction in the cafeteria and that was exciting (although that is super dangerous).
Today is my first day on the actual floor where I will be working. I was excited to get up and come to work today, even though I had to get up at 0530. I was excited to clock in and start my day. Everyone here is super nice and I feel very welcomed. However, I feel like some of the initial excitement has worn off. I know that sounds bad, but let me explain. My preceptor feels like she doesn't need to show me some things because I will be working nights and everything is so different from days to nights. That is a bit frustrating. I know it's true for some things, but it feels like a cop out so she doesn't have to slow down and show me things. Maybe it's because I am just so tired and our patients are so good today - who knows. I am still excited about my new job, but now I am waiting to go to nights to start my "real" orientation. Maybe the "new stuff" excitement will return my first night. Then again, maybe not. I may be lucky to stay awake the whole night :)
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Blake is now almost 4 months and weighs about 20lbs. He's HUGE and super cute. Will is three and terrible, but he's cute too. Matt is in school right now and is pursuing a degree in education. GO MATT! Life is good and all is well. I'm going to take this time to enjoy the relative calm that is my life before something bad happens, as it inevitably will.
Monday, September 14, 2009
Friday, August 7, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Monday, July 6, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Monday, May 11, 2009
Matt got me back in the car and headed to Walgreens, where we spent too much money on a pair of crutches for me. We got to the hotel only to find that the room we had booked a month in advance, was not available until 5pm due to the fact that they allowed late check out. Matt had booked the room with the jacuzzi bathtub, and since we don't have a bathtub, I was really looking forward to it. Stupid, crappy people. That night we saw the new Star Trek movie and it was AMAZING!!! I laughed so hard, and at some points I was the only one laughing. It was a great re-boot to the movies and it was hilarious.
Saturday morning we went to the temple where I was fussed over by all the female workers due to the fact I was on crutches. It was nice, but a bit embarrassing. I didn't want so much attention. Oh well. We had a great session. Matt then took me to the zoo where he proceeded to push me around in a wheelchair. It was fun but a bit humiliating. I felt dumb, but I couldn't have gotten around the zoo without him pushing me in the chair. He did run over a few people in all the crowds, but as it was super crowded, there wasn't any way to avoid hitting a couple of people, especially when people kept darting in front of the wheelchair.
Sunday we went to a random ward that we chose because it started at 10:50 and I didn't want to go to church at 8am on vacation. They handed out huge Hershey's Symphony milk chocolate candy bars for Mother's Day. It was great. I love chocolate. We then went to Wicked for the third time. Our whole trip was planned around the fact that we were going to see Wicked again. It was great for the third time. We went to the Sunday Matinee, so the main characters were played by the understudies to give the leading people a break. I have learned that you often get understudies when you go to matinees. This was by far my favorite wizard, but neither of the main characters of Glinda or Elphaba were the best we have seen. That's the problem with seeing a show several times, you compare actors and find some are better and some are not as good as you expect. Oh well. It was still wonderful and well worth it.
We got home late and Will was not excited to leave his Nana's house nor was he very excited to see us. Today he is very enthralled with my cane (I have traded the crutches for a cane) and he likes to carry it around. I called work today and asked if there was something I could do while using a crutch and having my foot in a brace. I was told that if I cannot fulfil my job description, I cannot come in to work. I figured that would be there answer, but it seems silly that they can't find anything for me to do. I am healing quickly and hope to be able to work tomorrow night because I need the money. I realize that this post is not very exciting, but I will post some zoo pictures later.
Friday, April 24, 2009
Over a month ago, when I thought things were hopeless and there was no end in sight, Matt gave me a blessing. The Lord blessed me that my schooling wouldn't be in vain and that I would get the desires of my heart. To me that translated to the fact that I will become an RN. What else can I do with a bachelors in nursing but be a nurse? Not much. Now I have to really prepare myself to take the state boards so I can pass the first time and put this crap behind me. So hopefully, in about a month, I will be a licensed RN.
I'm so relieved that it's almost over. Knowing the date the state board will review my application and brings me great release. I think the worst part about waiting is not knowing how long you are going to have to wait. It kills you. Now that I have a deadline I feel much better. Then I can bore you on my blog with nursing stories instead of my almost nursing woes. Wish me good luck.
Monday, April 20, 2009
When we got to church he was very excited. Sacrament meeting was exceptionally good, with a new senior missionary couple talking about the Atonement. It was a random thought, but as I was listening, the thought came to me about being like a little child. I thought about how excited Will was to come to church and how, given the choice of church or home, he chose to come to church. He LOVES to sing the hymns too. Sometimes I get annoyed at the organist and hymn leader in our ward because if the hymn has several verses that are underneath the music, we will sing those too. So, instead of singing the 3-4 verses we all know, we have to sing the 2-3 more, weird and obscure verses as well. That can really make the Sacrament hymn (which is already too slow because of the nature of the hymn) seem to last FOREVER. I love to sing but I get so annoyed when we sing more verses than I had planned, that I often don't sing the extra verses. I was thinking about the joy that William got out of singing they hymns and how I should be more like him. He takes a book, it doesn't have to be a hymnal, and opens it up and sings. It's off key and usually not real words, but I know the Lord loves and appreciates his joyful noise.
I was also thinking about how Will is so good a bowing his head and folding his arms to pray. If you tell him we are going to pray, he does those things automatically and with great joy. I love praying with him because he gets excited. He also gets easily distracted, but he's 2, so it's ok.
Another way that we can be like the little children is a few nights ago Will and I were watching TV and out of the blue he brought me his Illustrated Book of Mormon stories book and wanted to read. We read quite a bit and he was just fascinated. I struggle to read my Book of Mormon, even though I enjoy reading it once I get into it. Children are amazing. Will is already so knowledgeable about the Gospel. He loves to go to church, especially nursery. He loves to sing and read his Book of Mormon. He also recognizes pictures of Jesus in church and in his Book of Mormon. I worry about not teaching him well or not being a good enough example. I am learning that the Lord won't let Will suffer for my imperfections as long as I am striving to teach him.
I thought kids were just to help us learn patience. Boy was I wrong. Studying the behavior of children - our own or someone else's- teaches us what Christ meant when he told us to be like the little children. I am so lucky to have the gospel and to have such a beautiful family.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Side view of head and tummy.
Side view with tummy and hand at head.
Creepy view of top of his head. He looks like an alien in this picture.
That is his arm. Way cute. He'll probably look like Matt. Maybe one day I will have a kid that looks like me.
Monday, April 13, 2009
I am STILL waiting for my authorization to test from the state board of nursing. I drove down to Washburn, MO three weeks ago and pick up the stupid court letter from the court. I had a big fight with the lady that was supposed to be writing me a letter saying that there are no court documents relating to me. She said she wrote a letter in Feb and mailed it but I never got it. She conveniently didn't save the letter and then was too busy to write me another one. I finally asked if I could come pick it up. She said she was too busy to write the letter and a phone fight followed, with me crying and yelling and she throwing accusations at me. Finally she agreed to let me come pick up the letter the next day. The next day, I called to get directions on exactly where the courthouse was and the woman who wrote the letter had called in sick. I guess she was too busy to write my one sentence letter (because that is all it was) but not too busy to call in sick. I picked up the letter and overnighted it to the state. I thought that was the end of it, but NO. They are waiting on paperwork from the state board of education which will say the same thing as the court letter, which is basically we have no record of any disciplinary action being taken. I'm so annoyed. After they get the stuff from the education board then the board of nursing gets to decide if I get to take my RN test or not.
Meanwhile, at work you only have 90 days from your graduation date to take and pass your test or you cannot work as a nurse until you pass the test. My 90 days is almost up. They were going to put me on a leave of absence, which would have required me to get a different job because we cannot live without money. However, HR reviewed my case and decided to be benevolent and allow me to work. I am back to working as a tech and i'm making $10.00 less than I was as a nurse and I have had to explain to everyone why i'm not working as a nurse. It has been a humbling experience.
It has only been two weeks since I have been working as a tech, but I remember why I went to nursing school. Tech's are invaluable, and I don't want to be one anymore. I went to school to be a nurse and I WANT TO BE A NURSE!! I'm trying to be patient, but it is not one of my virtues. The Lord is teaching me to be patient. Maybe He's trying to teach me this now so that when our next child comes, we will have more patience. Who knows. All I know is that i'm not very good at it, but I am grateful to have a job and for the lessons I am learning.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
2. Maybe my view of death is different from other people's because I have the fullness of the gospel and better understand what is waiting for us.
3. ALWAYS wait for your hairdresser and don't settle for substitutes.
4. Purple highlights may not be appropriate if I am following the gospel standards of modest dress and apperance, but they sure do grow on you. I like my hair (except for the cut).
5. Sometimes the doctor cannot fix you back the way you want. My aunt, about 1.5 weeks after her mother died, had her leg amputated above the knee because it was the only option.
6. Bad stuff really does come in threes. Gar died, Aunt Carol lost her leg, I cannot work as a nurse until I get my test taken. (Oh, and I got a bad haircut, but i'm not sure that counts).
7. The Lord gives us trials for a reason. Faith and Patience were only part of the lesson to be learned. I am learning that you cannot just have faith. You must act upon that faith. You must know that the Lord will bless you but that isn't enough. You still have to ask for those blessings. You have to act like the Lord doesn't know what you want. (Sorry if that doesn't make sense).
8. Humility is a great lesson, but it's better when you are not the one learning it. It stinks to be forced to learn humility. I used to think I was humble, but the Lord showed me otherwise.
9. The Lord's time is not my time. "Speedily" to the Lord does not mean today or tomorrow, like it does in my perfect world.
10. No matter what, My family and I are very, very, very blessed. We are blessed for the trials we are experiencing and we will be stronger as a family when this is over.
11. I married an exceptionally wonderful man. He has been so supportive during this whole thing. He had faith when I didn't and has allowed me (within limits) to sob and cry. I'm very lucky (although his 5 year rolling plan for what to do if I die is still in effect - I said he's wonderful, not perfect).
Friday, March 27, 2009
purple highlights after I graduated from nursing school. I also
convinced Matt to quit going to Great Clips and get a good haircut. I
made an appointment for today for both of us. I was to get my
highlights and a trim and Matt needed a cut. We showed up 5 minutes
early, but my hair lady wasn't there. She actually never showed up.
I was a bit annoyed, but not too much so. This other lady volunteered
to take care of us. We agreed, butit was a bad idea. She cut someone
else hair before she got to us. This guy was a walk in and she said it
would take 15 minutes. 45 minutes later she was ready for me. She did
a good job on me as well as Matt but she wasn't very nice. I have been
going to that salon since it first opened and I have always brought
Will. She made it clear that Will wasn't welcome. She also acted like
we were an inconvienience to her, me especially. I was very offended
at her attitude. She also charged me twice as much as Sarai, the owner
of the salon, would have charged me. I was pissed off by the time I
Matts hair looks great. My hair is shorter than I would like but
whatever. I wanted a more shocking purple than I got. She bleached
some of it, making it bright, but not all of it. I wanted it all
bleached. Oh well. In six weeks I will go to Sarai and get her to fix
it. The lady today said that a purple touch up was included in the
outrageous price, but I had to come back to see her. Fat chance. Ain't
gonna happen. Next time Sarai isn't there, I will reschedule rather
than go back to her. I promise I have learned my lesson.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Yes, feast your eyes on my new 2005 (ok, new to me) Honda Pilot 4WD SUV. It has leather seats and a sunroof. We are getting it from CarMax (a great place to buy a used car). I am SOOOOOOOOOOO excited. It seats 8! Am I the luckiest person ever or what? I'm just really spoiled. It's not my fault my parents only had one child. However, this will be the last thing my mom ever buys me.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
1. Google "[Your Name] needs to"
Emily needs to give Tim food in Social Studies today.
2. Google "[your name] looks like"
Emily looks like a man.
3. Google "[your name] likes"
Emily likes Fall Out Boy's Q&A profile.
4. Google "[your name] says"
Emily says hello.
5. Google "[your name] wants"
Emily wants to know who enjoyed her cuteness.
6. Google "[your name] does"
Emily does the Salmon dance.
7. Google "[your name] hates"
Emily hates you 2.0.
8. Google "[your name] can"
Emily can be lyrics.
9. Google "[your name] goes"
Emily goes wild.
10. Google "[your name] is"
Emily is good and Greek.
11. Google "[your name] loves"
Emily loves Banana custard.
The strangest thing about graduating from nursing school is that now I don't have to go to class several days a week. I get to go to the hospital to work (did I mention I get paid?) and then I get to go home. I don't have care plans to turn in or post-clinical conference to sit through. I don't have papers to write or exams to study for. Well, I still have to take my state boards, so technically I still have a test to study for.
I love my job and cannot believe that I get paid for it. It's sooooooo cool. That is all.
Friday, February 20, 2009
they never talking about me? People at work today were talking about
there cool plans with Emily, but they weren't talking about me. Maybe
I'm just not that cool. Like that new movie I haven't seen because I'm
a loser, "He's just not that in to you".
2. Did you know you can make your upper lip look like you got collagin
injections? I have a very stuffy nose and have been blowing my nose
for two days straight and am halfway through my second box of Puffs.
The "snot channel" under my nose is so red and swollen that my upper
lip looks like I got collagin injections. Crazy! Why pay for bigger
lips when you can get sick with the same results.
Friday, February 6, 2009
- Will and I went to Kentucky to visit my mom and we had a great time and got home safely.
- I spent lots of time with my wonderful husband.
- I graduated from nursing school. I even got my diploma in the mail today which said I graduated with honors! Go Me.
- I now officially own my car. I made the last car payment on February 5th.
- I filled out my new hire paperwork at North Kansas City Hospital today. I start work Monday.
- I got to spend most of the day with my family by accident. I was leaving the hospital and saw my cousin Kelly. My Aunt Carol had knee replacement surgery today, so I sat with my family for several hours and chatted. I got to see my Aunt Carol after her surgery and she looked great.
- I got to have a vaginal ultrasound on the 5th and was able to see my new baby. He/she looks great and is very healthy the doctor said. HOORAY!
I must say, I am a very blessed individual and am happy to be me. I have been so wrapped up in school that I have forgotten to enjoy things, and I am enjoying things now and am super greatful for all my life has to offer.
Monday, February 2, 2009
I got to the car rental area and found that Hertz was all out of one way vehicles. I went to National or something like it and asked for a car to Louisville. The people standing at the counter that were almost finished with the rental process offered to let Will and I ride with them. I pondered the offer for a few moments and felt good about the decision, and agreed to ride with them. They live in Louisville and were trying to get home to their three children. Will and I had a lovely trip and they were wonderful to us. We bought them a tank of gas when we arrived in Louisville, and that was all the payment they would take. It was a great blessing to have found them and to have been able to ride with them. The Lord watched out for us since I didn't make the best choice while still in Kansas City. I should have stayed at home and flown to Louisville the next day, but I didn't.
Will and I have had a wonderful visit but are excited to get back home to see Matt. I don't think I will ever go on vacation again without my spouse. It was a great trip, but I missed him very much.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
I think that all the necessary paperwork has been submitted to the state board of nursing, or will be submitted shortly. A court document was needed, but I got that taken care of last week. After graduation, the school will send my transcripts to the state board of nursing. Once they get all the paperwork, they will send me a notice that I can schedule my state board's test (NCLEX). Once I get the ok to test I get to schedule the NCLEX at my leisure and take the boards. HOORAY! I actually get to start working as an RN February 9th. If I don't pass boards (which I will) I don't get to work as an RN anymore until I can pass. That won't happen though, because I will pass and it will be GREAT!
I am doing my practicum on the floor that I will work on when I graduate. I really like the people on the floor and and am having a good time learning. I am excited to start working so I can get a paycheck. It's going to be awesome to get paid for nursing rather than paying out the nose to go to school. I think graduate school is on the horizon, but not next decade. Maybe in 10 years or so.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
I am halfway through my Senior Clinical Practicum, which is an internship for nursing. I worked Thursday - Sunday last week. I was not ready for four 12 hour shifts in a row. My legs were swollen and nasty. However, this means I am truly almost done with nursing school! It's very exciting. I am doing my practicum on the floor that I will be working on, so I am getting to know people and finding my way around. It's like orientation before orientation starts. It's cool. The un-cool part about the practicum is the paper I am writing. I didn't realize until Friday that my rough draft was due yesterday. I threw something together at the last minute and am glad that we are not getting a grade for the rough draft because mine was super rough. Oh well, at least I have most of my paper written now.
Monday, January 5, 2009
finished inspired me to blog. It's called The Last Templar and is by
Raymond Khoury. I have seen this book several times and thought it
sounded interesting. It is in the same vein as The Davinci Code by Dan
Brown. I finally bought it in Dallas at Half Price Books. As a side
note, I highly recommend Half Price Books. I LOVE it!
Anyway, I started this book and it was really good. About half way
through it made me mad. The book centers around searching for a lost
Templar treasure that may prove Jesus Christ was not divine. That
stuff doesn't bother me. I know He was divine and I can suspend
reality like you wouldn't believe when I want to. What really made me
mad was that one of the main characters is a devout Catholic and he
starts to doubt his faith. At one point I almost didn't finish the
book I was so disgusted. However, I love to read and couldn't help
myself. I had to finish the book. As a matter of fact, the ending made
me think I would like to read more of this guys books. If you enjoyed
Dan Brown, I recommend The Last Templar. It was never boring and the
ending was surprising and good.