You know, for all the time and trouble I spent getting into nursing school and all the money we are spending for me to be in nursing school, I sure am not very motivated. Maybe that is because I am burnt out, or maybe it's because my mom is coming to visit in a week and a day and I just can't seem to focus. Of course, it could be because studying is boring. I have always had a difficult time motivating myself, and if finals didn't start Monday, I would probably procrastinate some more. I am stressed out and not dealing with it well.
To top it all off I had to take Will to get his 1 year shots and he has not felt well. He got a flu shot, his MMR, the chicken pox vaccine, and Hib vaccine, which is a vaccine for a type of bacterial flu. I know I wouldn't feel good after that. Will runs around whining and pulling my homework down. It drives me crazy, but I can't be mad because he is just a baby and doesn't understand he can't play with my homework and he doesn't understand why he doesn't feel good. I love him.
Saturday, December 1, 2007
At school a couple of weeks ago they put The Missouri State Board of Nursing Newsletter in our boxes. I found it in my church bag today and was looking at it. You know, if you do something stupid and get caught at a normal job you get written up, suspended, or fired. As a nurse, you get all of those things and you are reported to the State Board of Nursing. They publish every offense that was comitted in the last four months (it's a quarterly newsletter) with your name, the city you live in, a detailed description of the "crime", and if you were suspended, reprimanded, or had your license taken away. Be assured that I will NEVER get my name in this paper. It's a strong deterrant.
I actually have three callings in the church (if you count visiting teaching). I'm not very good at any of them, but my family history calling requires me to teach sunday school each week, so i'm forced to work on my calling. I love all of my callings and I just haven't found a way to prioritize yet. Anyway, I had a meeting with the Stake Family History Center Director on Tuesday and we talked about my ability to work at the family history center. I was working one night a week for two hours and that became too much. However, I like being in the fam. hx. center and want to work if I can. We worked out a deal where I can work the first Saturday of the month and I am excited about it. My shift is four hours, from 9am to 1pm. I am at the fam. hx. center now and there are only two patrons. I brought my Pharmacology homework and am getting some good work done. I really enjoy being here. The director once compared it to the temple in the type of quiet reverence here. I do think there is a sweet spirit and a quiet reverance that I am enjoying.